Well I always have been a picky eater; my mum would always talk about how great I was for hating soft drinks (soda) despite literally never trying it. But nowadays it's gotten worse, a lot worse.

What sparked this thought is because I'm on a seaside holiday in my grandparent's house who have to physically figure out what me and my brothers eat as we're all so god damm picky. Although I'm definitely the worst out of the 3. There have been times where I have only eaten 4 pieces of 50/50 toast in a day (I don't like brown bread because it's too bitter; especially untoasted and white bread is kinda' meh to me) but skip dinner because I don't feel like eating the tomato pasta that's being served at dinner despite me liking tomato pasta. My reasoning is that "I just don't feel like it."

Another weird thing that has been happening over the past few weeks is that sometimes I'll just forget how to chew and the food just wont go down my throat and I see no desire to eat the plate of food that's in front of me; even if I'm still hungry. That's why I prefer eating alone now as people just distract me, but there's been times where I lost my appetite alone and ate a full plate while talking to people so that can't be the reason.

Things are starting to get screwed up. I can't eat at McDonalds anymore as the food is too oily and fatty for me to handle. I was fine before eating a burger and fries but now ironically, I much prefer subway which I used to hate as a child before realising you can make custom sandwiches (thanks theodd1sout.) I first started to notice this when I was doing a bet with my friend. I won and I ate 4 and a half cookies. My breathing was going funny and I was getting chest pains which I knew right away was from all the sugar (that's why I only ate half of a cookie.) But the same thing happened with some home made cookies. So I made a measuring system: 1 is fine, 2 is sorta and 3 is AAAAAAAAAA (sometimes my lungs just feel like screwing me over and my breathing goes manual for no reason like as I'm typing this I haven't eaten any sugar in about 26 hours.) Same thing applies to oil but oil is used in small amounts anyway so it's not as annoying.

We got a new bathroom scale a month ago and out of curiosity I measured my weight as I don't remember the last time I did. I have measured around 20 times and they all say 48Kg (105 lb) except for that one time it measured something like 260Kg which is medically obese I have no clue how that happened. According to mum that's not normal for someone who's 5"7 (idk exactly how tall I am but that's just an estimate that I've been going with) and that I should be something like 55Kg.

It's probably just a phase that'll go away eventually. All problems do.

I wish this headache would go away though I literally drank 3 cups of water why won't it go away.